ive said this for a while, but im changing my life. the pain from the dreams i had and the mourning i show for the love and loss of old friends has pushed me to pursue my life. and soon i hope to have photos of me and whats happening around me. i am unashamed to have black nails, let my hair down, tell people what i think. though i still shut down in some situations, im still succeeding more than holding myself back. im sitting down and building the life i wanted around me.

i am now working as a massage therapist at alchemy spa in boise, i go to a gothic bar on sunday, i work and live in the gothic community that loves me. i do trade with my spa workers to improve my hair, nails, skin, muscles and piercings. even friends ive known for years have said to me "finally you're looking the part".